I wish I could sort out my feelings and put them down on paper. But, I just can't. My mind and heart is a jumble of hurt, betrayal and deep sadness.
Mother's Day cuts me like a knife. The hatred I have for my own mother and sense of complete loss for my own motherhood. It's so hard to deal with this day, I just can't begin to explain it.
My own mother stole my chances at motherhood. Why? Because it was convenient for her and her image. No thought for my child, or myself. My future was forever altered by someone who was allowed to become a mother. She is a selfish person that I am obligated to wish a happy Mother's Day.
My heart breaks every day and ten times more on Mother's Day.
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