Eden Roc -- Conception In Miami Beach

Before the New Year begins I wanted to set the stage.  In 1972 it all started right here.  Here, in the Eden Roc Hotel in Miami Beach - May 1972.

As the new year begins I will go through my journey of horrors, from beginning to end.  I pray my story will help stop the murder.  Even if a single murder is stopped, it will be 2 lives saved.

Below are photos of the Eden Roc taken during this time in history.  Some of the photos are bit prior to 1972, but the appearance of the hotel is the same.  It was hard to find old pictures because this old hotel was renovated and it just wasn't the same any more.

Forced Abortion in America

Here's a very interesting special report.  It's heartbreaking and contains information, about what happens to women who do not want an abortion, that will horrify you.

Forced Abortion in America -- download the full .pdf file here:

 http://www.theunchoice.com/pdf/FactSheets/ForcedAbortions.pdf

Excerpts from the report

I wanted to keep my child but I had no say.
My mother took me to [the clinic] ... They told her ... abortion was the best decision. Everyone made the decision for me. I really wanted to keep my child even at that age. At that time, parents made the decision for a minor. I really had no say.   -- Tambra Plummer

My relatives made the arrangements.
The baby’s father retracted his marriage proposal as soon as he found out I was pregnant. I had no money, no medical insurance, and didn’t realize that there were places to turn to for help ... My relatives [made] all the arrangements ... Everyone was there to give advice before the abortion, but afterwards I was on my own. If I had had love, support, and above all, the true facts, I would have never even considered an abortion. The pain never goes away.  -- Carolyn Walton

I sped away--my mother caught up with me.
When I told my mom I was pregnant, she immediately made the appointment [for an abortion]. I kept hanging the phone up on her and she kept re-dialing. Finally she got through ... The next morning, I crept downstairs, got into my car and sped away—she quickly followed and finally caught up with me.  -- Laura O'Brien

It wasn’t my choice. It should be called “Your Parents’ and the Guy’s Choice.' No one would support me ... The worst day of my life got closer and closer ... I think in more cases than not, it isn’t the woman’s choice. It should be called “Your Parents’ and the Guy’s Choice ...” I needed someone to tell me that it was possible to keep my baby, but no one did ...  -- Amanda

Trauma Induced PTSD

I never paid much attention to PTSD, since the media seemed to push it as a military thing.  I don't come from a military family so it was never on my radar.  It wasn't until several years ago that I read an article about PTSD affecting just an everyday citizen.  I must have read the article a dozen times.  It just hit home and I started looking in to the possibility of having PTSD because of being witness to a murder and having the murder victim ripped from my body.

Honestly, it was so horrible that I do believe I have PTSD.

I never sought help or validation for this notion.  Why?  Stigma is the main reason.  Also, I knew I would never have any support for my journey.  One more thing, I did not want it in my records because I know stuff like that affects decisions when looking for a job.  So, here I am.

Here's some info and I think, from this you can see how an abortion's violence could cause PTSD.

Starting tomorrow I will begin to tell the whole story, from the beginning.  I will try to stay on track so everything will be presented in chronological order.


Below is a collection of information from the NIH:

http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd/index.shtml

Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

What is Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)?

PTSD develops after a terrifying ordeal that involved physical harm or the threat of physical harm. The person who develops PTSD may have been the one who was harmed, the harm may have happened to a loved one, or the person may have witnessed a harmful event that happened to loved ones or strangers.

PTSD was first brought to public attention in relation to war veterans, but it can result from a variety of traumatic incidents, such as mugging, rape, torture, being kidnapped or held captive, child abuse, car accidents, train wrecks, plane crashes, bombings, or natural disasters such as floods or earthquakes.

Signs & Symptoms

PTSD can cause many symptoms. These symptoms can be grouped into three categories:

1. Re-experiencing symptoms

• Flashbacks—reliving the trauma over and over, including physical symptoms like a racing heart or sweating
• Bad dreams
• Frightening thoughts.

Re-experiencing symptoms may cause problems in a person’s everyday routine. They can start from the person’s own thoughts and feelings. Words, objects, or situations that are reminders of the event can also trigger re-experiencing.

2. Avoidance symptoms

• Staying away from places, events, or objects that are reminders of the experience
• Feeling emotionally numb
• Feeling strong guilt, depression, or worry
• Losing interest in activities that were enjoyable in the past
• Having trouble remembering the dangerous event.

Things that remind a person of the traumatic event can trigger avoidance symptoms. These symptoms may cause a person to change his or her personal routine. For example, after a bad car accident, a person who usually drives may avoid driving or riding in a car.

3. Hyperarousal symptoms

• Being easily startled
• Feeling tense or “on edge”
• Having difficulty sleeping, and/or having angry outbursts.

Hyperarousal symptoms are usually constant, instead of being triggered by things that remind one of the traumatic event. They can make the person feel stressed and angry. These symptoms may make it hard to do daily tasks, such as sleeping, eating, or concentrating.

It’s natural to have some of these symptoms after a dangerous event. Sometimes people have very serious symptoms that go away after a few weeks. This is called acute stress disorder, or ASD. When the symptoms last more than a few weeks and become an ongoing problem, they might be PTSD. Some people with PTSD don’t show any symptoms for weeks or months.

Who Is At Risk?

Risk factors for PTSD include:

• Living through dangerous events and traumas
• Having a history of mental illness
• Getting hurt
• Seeing people hurt or killed
• Feeling horror, helplessness, or extreme fear
• Having little or no social support after the event
• Dealing with extra stress after the event, such as loss of a loved one, pain and injury, or loss of a job or home.

Diagnosis

Not every traumatized person develops full-blown or even minor PTSD. Symptoms usually begin within 3 months of the incident but occasionally emerge years afterward. They must last more than a month to be considered PTSD. The course of the illness varies. Some people recover within 6 months, while others have symptoms that last much longer. In some people, the condition becomes chronic.

Fetal Death Certificate

Did you know you could obtain a fetal death certificate after an abortion?  I thought the left wing murdering whack jobs said that a fetus wasn't life.  If that's the case why would a death certificate be filed?

I am going to try and get a copy of mine, if it exists.  I don't have exact dates because PTSD has contributed to the complete blocking of the exact date of the procedure.  I cannot retrieve the date, no matter how hard and desperately I try.  I could ask my mother but she would not remember, nor care and would just tell me her most favorite comment.  "Don't be ridiculous."  Yeah, that's her favorite line when I tried to share my thoughts and feelings with her.  So, I will not ask her for anything.

Here's the information that the NY Department of Health sent to me.

Remember the left wing wankers don't believe a fetus is life.  This is even more proof that life begins at conception.

------Information received from NY DH Vital Records Department------

Ms. XXXXXX,

We would not have hospital records and I imagine any hospital/facility would have destroyed them by now as this was over 40 years ago.  We might have a copy of the Fetal Death Certificate on file if the fetal death occurred in NYS outside of NYC.

From 1964 – 1992 when a Fetal Death occurred a single type of certificate (for a spontaneous or induced death) was created.  It contains the following information:

The fetus’s first, middle, last name,

Gender,

Type of delivery (single, twin, etc.),

Date of delivery,

Time of delivery

County, town, city, and hospital of delivery,

Name of mother,

Age of mother,

State of birth of mother,

Residence state and address of mother,

Name of father,

Age of father,

State of birth of father

Immediate cause of death

Was there an autopsy

If there was an autopsy were findings considered in determining cause of death

There is a section for the physician’s information

There is a section for the Coroner or ME’s information

The final section, filled out for spontaneous deaths, contains information regarding the disposition of a body.

Since one certificate was used, when the Fetal Death was due to an induced death much of what is listed above is blank.  The certificate does not contain any information regarding consent.  Often with induced Fetal Deaths physicians filled out very little of this form.  Often when someone requests a copy we cannot find one because the physician did not complete any of the identifying information.

If you are interested you may attempt to order a copy of the Fetal Death Certificate and if we have one (or can find one) we can send it to you.  Unfortunately it will just be a certificate, it won’t have many of the answers you are  looking for.  If interested please see our website at http://www.health.ny.gov/vital_records/fetal.htm

If the Fetal Death occurred in NYC we would not have a copy; you will need to contact the New York City Department of Health and Mental Hygiene. You may contact them by phone at New York City’s main phone number: 311 or 212-639-9675 outside New York City. You can also reach them by mail at:

THE CITY OF NEW YORK – DEPARTMENT OF HEALTH AND MENTAL HYGIENE
OFFICE OF VITAL RECORDS
125 Worth Street, CN 4, Room 133
New York, N.Y. 10013-4090

Applications and contact information are available on the New York City Department of Health and Mental Hygiene web site at www.nyc.gov/vitalrecords

I hope this has been of some assistance. 

Guy Warner

NYS Registrar

Director, New York State Vital Records

One Shot Learning

Edwin R. Guthrie believed in One Shot Learning.  What is it and how does it relate to me?  Very simple.  In a nutshell, I learned that if I had a child, my family for conspire and murder it.  The force of that experience caused one shot learning for me to never be in a situation to have another child.

This was actually reinforced even more because of the things that happened during the abortion/murder and after.  It was beyond horrible and I was required to keep it to myself and never mention it to anyone. I went through this Hell alone.  Now it is time to share. I will be sharing everything that happened from the beginning to now.  I can't say to the end because there is no end.  Every day I relive the horrors of murder.

Even if I hadn't had this intense one shot learning experience, I never would have been able to have had children anyway.  The way the murder was carried out it left me scarred with so much scar tissue no child could ever have been conceived.  

Below is a summary of One Shot Learning and below that is the source book.

Minors have Rights!

Sadly, the statute of limitations has passed.  If I had known this, when I was 17, I would have had my mother arrested.  She, knowingly and willingly violated the law.  She packed me off to doctors that had never seen anyone in the family and then took me to New York for an abortion.  At the time, this was the only state that didn't care about residency.  Seems Mom was up on the latest laws and chose to break them.  While in New York I was forbidden any contact with my paternal grandfather who lived in Rochester.  I was smuggled in and smuggled out.  No care about me only care about her.

Do you know why she murdered my child?  This is the truth, so help me God.

1 She refused to raise it - Her words. the child was an IT.  Of course she never asked what I wanted, or needed.  I never had  chance.
2 The child would not have a name.  Wow, that's a great reason to commit murder.

My mother is a selfish murderer and took out on my child what she wished she had done to me that many years ago.

I had rights and didn't know it.  I hate my mother for the murderer she is.

"Can My Parents Force Me to Have an Abortion? Minor females have a constitutional right to make their own decisions on reproductive choices. The constitution gives women the right to choose whether they want an abortion and this also applies to women minors. The decision is hers alone and no parent can force the teen to have an abortion. The decision to have an abortion must be voluntary and independent. A parent who tries to coerce a daughter to have an abortion may also face legal charges for child abuse or battery. -

See more at: http://www.legalmatch.com/law-library/article/abortion-rights-of-minors.html#sthash.ftkHMEXb.dpuf"

How did this this all start?  I will be posting all the background information that is fit to print.

There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about this heinous act and the child that I never had a chance to bring in to this world.  I often wonder what role my child would have played in this world.  What did the world lose because of the act of one selfish, could have been, grandmother?

Roe v Wade - Death of a Moral Nation

Just as pro-lifers were beginning to turn the tide however, the Supreme Court handed down Roe vs Wade in January 1973.  With one judicial stroke, over 200 years of legal protection for the unborn was rendered null and void.  For the first time in American history, abortion was the "law of the land".

https://www.ewtn.com/library/PROLIFE/LIFBFROE.TXT

Abortion is a life long Pain!

15-Year-Old Forced to Abort Her Unborn Baby, Now At 22 She Can't Ever Have Children | LifeNews.com

"Many women suffer in silence from their abortions because we live in a society that is increasingly “celebrating” abortion. Women are told that abortion is a safe and simple procedure, much like having a tooth extracted; or that there will be no long-term side effects and their life will go back to normal."

To be forced to participate in the murder of an innocent is the worst crime a parent can force their own child to do.  People say to forgive.  Some things are unforgivable.

Exposing of the Heart

As 2015 comes to an end, a New Year is about to begin. With that new year, it will be a new way. It's finally time to expose my heart and share what has happened, during my life. My goal? To help myself, to help someone who is trapped in the same position and to wake up a parent that is about to engage in the act of murder. Wake up. Because if you don't, the repercussions will last a life time and two lives will be forever destroyed.

Without Family

Without family we are nothing. But, what to do when family kills the beginning of a new family? That's what I face every day. My family, killed the beginning of my own family. Today, I have no family of my own because of the selfish actions of my own mother.